About Lorella Ricci
Certified Hakomi Therapist
Founder: Embodied Feeling Being
Combining Somatic Psychotherapy with Somatic Tibetan Tantric Practices
to support Full Human-Beingness
Having spent the majority of my adult life immersed in meditation retreats, somatic psychotherapy and pretty much anything that would facilitate healing, I was surprised to discover in my early forties that it didn’t matter what I did, or how much I did it, some part of me, at the core, felt broken.
Even though I could see the change, feel the growth and the integration that had happened … the persistence of a core sense of unworthiness was somehow stronger and more intolerable than ever.
I lost faith that healing was possible. I lost faith in meditation, Buddhism, psychotherapy and everything that had given my life meaning.
I let go of doing what I thought I should do, and started to follow the nearly inaudible impulses of my own being. What was my truth? What was my conditioning? Could I tolerate stepping out of an incessant need for external validation and the safety of these lineages?
I explored psychedelic medicines, which brought to life dimensions of spiritual teachings that, previous to this, I’d understood only in theory.
I took a deep dive into sexuality, unravelling the collective shame and taboo invisibly suffocating my whole, embodied experience. I did countless workshops, retreats, studied Sexological Bodywork and Somatic Sex Education and ended up teaching Embodied Intimacy and a relational, sensual mediation that illuminated unconscious beliefs in the body in a way that would take years to see in therapy and meditation. Undoubtedly a fast track.
I stumbled across Somatic Tibetan Tantric Meditation, a completely different approach to the traditional meditation of the Buddhist forest traditions I’d been immersed in for 18 years. Even though I had made a vow to never follow another teacher or lineage, the practices and the teachings pointed to what I’d always been seeking: welcoming all that was denied and hidden.
It trained me to relax, to open, to notice unconscious tension and train my awareness to meet it out of the corner of my eye, rather than pierce into my experience. I learned to meet feelings with a tenderness that allowed them to breathe, to reveal themselves in a way that I was previously unable to see. It was a paradoxical journey: an unravelling of how I’d been trained to inquire into my experience.
It’s not a surprise that the unconscious can’t be navigated with the same methods we use to explore the mind. It’s interesting that we can’t see it.
I left the land of embodied sexuality and turned back towards psychotherapy. Back home. Back to private practice where I could guide those with sensitive and vibrant inner realms, who after years of therapy and healing felt condemned to a life of complex trauma and intensity.
But this time when I sat in the therapy seat, I felt different. Not only did I trust that healing was possible, but I was no longer practicing someone else’s teachings. I could feel an interweaving in my body, that is particular to me. Yes, I’m a Hakomi Psychotherapist, but my meditation and my lifetime of immersion into the depths of my unconscious is what I rest into. I don’t interpret your experience, I help you notice the unconscious feelings you don’t want to feel, and help you find ways to feel it.
I support you deeper into you.
My work isn’t work … it’s just one of my favourite places to be.